So this week I haven't written ANYTHING!!
I'm sorry for being so MIA--and at Fin's request I am going to write about my week of INactivity:

CR:
He hasn't written back! usually he writes within a day or so; it's already been a week but I'm not sure what's going on--did I come on too strong? If I did he must be really scared of women, because I honestly don't think I came on too strong--and he did say that he finds "Assertiveness and boldness a turn-on"
I guess I'm going to have to close the coffin on this one.

TS:
Just when I gave up hope on everyone TS writes back saying he was really busy at work; He likes hearing me 'speak'. It's cool to write back to him; although he's not D-; I know I know I have to really broaden my view; but I was really hoping to meet some really cool d- guys. Well it's my turn so I will write him back tomorrow.

And interestingly enough there is someone else:
NYC(New York Cutie)
this guy's d-- and he seems pretty cool; we might hang out when I get back to the bay. he's a game developer and has a really quirky sense of humor which I really , really like.


thoughts?

i got this message on nerve.com today:

Hi,

I may be too old, (he is 39) and the wrong color, (he's another white guy) but I'm a serious theorist (and whistler) (on my profile i say that i'm an aspiring pro-whistler). I was seriously intrigued by your profile too.

You can find out about me and see more pictures of me here:

(insert URL)

This interview pretty much sums up my story of late. You can hear my music at (insert another URL). just do a search with my name: (insert FIRST and LAST NAME).

Also, there is my web site: (insert yet another URL)

I hope to hear from you.

E.

(insert personal email address)

so okay. at least he acknowledged that he's disregarding my profile, but at least the guy read it!!! i got another email from SBC. he told me that last year he made 35mm film and i asked about it. this must've really gotten him excited because he wrote a really long email about it and asked about the film that i'm writing. so, hey! we have something in common. i just don't know how long i can keep corresponding via email, though. it's getting a bit tedious having to do the electronic back and forth. i guess this is the modern-day version of pen pals. god, has society come to this? you go miles into knowing someone from the comfort of your own home. i get messages from match.com advertising "online speed dating." i guess you "meet and greet" on a virtual level at hurried increments of time. why? it's like take out fast food. whatever. i don't know how long this is going to last.

i got another keeper of a message from match.com. it was--you guessed it--from yet another stupid white guy that literally--COULD NOT READ--that i'm only interested in MEN OF COLOR:

subject: HELLO

I read your profile and think we have alot in common. i would like the chance to get to know you better. If you would like to get to know me drop me a e-mail. I hope to hear from you soon.

E.

he was white/caucasian, 28 years old and a capricorn. first of all, for leos like me, capricorns are friends forever; lovers never. actually, this is third of all--first of all, was that he was white/caucasian! in what part of "MEN OF COLOR" did he actually envision himself to belong? now finally second of all, what in common did we have? oh, yeah. maybe, he's only interested in WOMEN OF COLOR. did he think that his senses are highly attuned to asian fetishism, like me? hmmmm...

as i was reading his message and then looking at his profile, i kept thinking, "doesn't anybody read anymore?" then, i read how "E" likes "travling" and that he was "loveab le." too bad, he wasn't "proofreadable." when i saw his unedited profile rush job, i realized, "why, of course he'd see my profile and think that we have a lot in common: no, he doesn't read; he doesn't even read his own profile to check it for mistakes."

online dating sucks.

i've had a couple of back and forth emails with SBC. nothing special. i don't think we come off as being particularly witty, intelligent or funny to each other. i don't even know how into any of this online stuff i am. i feel like i'm just channel surfing. every morning, i get an email from match.com "alerting" me of all the new guys interested in me. when i look at them, i think, "next!" even if they are cute, i don't feel too inspired to do anything. not even sign up for a trial account to send a message. maybe, i'm not ready to date. who the hell is and how the hell can you tell?

i had dinner with mr. ex factor monday night. it was under the guise that he was going to return a book of mine. but, HELLO! mr. ex forgets to bring it. we had dinner anyway. it'll be interesting how this friend with the ex thing goes... hmmm...

yeah yeah. so i sound like a surfer, but what the hell else am i gonna do? give the guy's real name? SBC finally emailed me back. (maybe my luck is turning around, or maybe he was doing the obligatory three-day wait thing). first thing i noticed. he capitalizes the first word of every sentence. when i see that in electronic correspondence, it weirds me out. my capitalization goes to shit. plus, aesthetically, it looks better without capitalizing every new sentence. he was curious about my work and said that my profile was "one of the more interesting" ones--and "interesting in a good way." huh. well, at least he was backing up a sister for being honest about her anti-40 year old white guy repellent message in her profile. btw, i toned down the message. i was afraid that match.com kept truncating my profile because they thought i was being a bit too harsh with my original message. so now, my profile says this:

PLEASE RESPECT that i only am interested in MEN OF COLOR between the AGES Of 27-35 and don't expect me to explain why, nor to respond to messages that ignore this. if you're a man of color or not, who is only looking for "Asian/Pacific Islander" women and you are NOT Asian or Pacific Islander, please do not send me messages because my senses are highly attuned to detecting asian fetishism, and i will not be interested.

but still... some mofo's ignore this. case in point: i got another wink from--you guessed it! another 40 year-old white guy. fuckheads! READ dammit! READ!!!

btw, i went to the mayan saturday night with, "angelica." now really, "angie," did you think i wouldn't know who posted that comment on my post? i'll write more about it later. this 23-year old developed a crush on me. i didn't have the heart to tell him that i was too old for him. but, at least he thought that i could pass for 20 years old. heh heh. SPF 30, i love ya!