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2.02.2005


i'm baaaack! 

not much has happened in the search for cyber love, since i last wrote in october of last year... yes. the prospects were that dim. except, now that it's a new year, i've vowed to try anything once... even if it's trying to spend time with someone i've only met digitally, and who may repulse me analogically (is that the term?) upon meeting him in the flesh.

so saturday, i'm meeting a blind date for brunch.

how did this happen? he made me laugh. in december, i got this message on nerve.com that i just ignored. i had pretty much given up on meeting anyone on nerve, and was too busy with work to pay attention. eleven days later, he writes again--hilariously so. he starts off with:

okay, i'm not socially inept, it's not that i don't recognize the shame associated with sending a note twice, which is a little [like] buying a second drink for a woman at a bar after she's refused the first or passed it to the nearest alcoholic.

afterwards, he reiterates the commonalities we had between us and charmingly made an argument for why i should respond. his humility and his humor made me write back... and now... i hope i'll be on my best behavior. i say "behavior" because i have a terrible track record with dating guys. if i decide i don't like someone--usually for arbitrary reasons--i'll just disappear without a trace and explanation, avoiding any confrontation or moment of honesty where i just say, "i'm just not that into you."

i'm taking a gamble here since i'm meeting the guy for the first time over brunch. meaning, if things aren't going well... what the hell am i going to do? i'll want to finish my food, of course, because i'm not one to be wasteful. but, if he makes me want to lose my appetite... then i'm stuck.

mestizo boy #1 update:
remember him? well, he wrote me a couple of weeks ago out of the blue--really out of the blue since i haven't spoken to him since the last time he tried to ask me out in june... advertising that i'll have a "good time." (i've been having a blast, since, without him).

he writes saying how he saw my ad "pop up" on nerve:

Any interesting stories from the site recently? Drop me a line when you get a chance. I'll be throwing some parties in the very near future and I'd love to have you along.

along for what? does he want me to help pick up the empties after the party's over? i responded to just say, "hi," back and even tried to show how i remembered he worked for a pharmaceuticals company in sales.

i write:

i hope you're doing well and not working too hard for dow (aka "dow" man).

it turns out he works for pfizer. oh, hell. who cares? it's not like i missed out on the $10,000 prize on a game show with that little piece of trivia.